Le Reveil du Maitre
So, how do you know if you're there yet?
I think I've spent every waking moment (and some sleeping ones) since the age of eight pondering the answer to this question. It kinda counteracts any positivity to have a self-destructive personality like mine. After a lifetime of near poverty, family support and lack of self-worth, I've looked back and discovered that we never really get there. I'm not saying that we can't ever be happy. I mean that the constant search for happiness is a little futile. How can we ever be truly happy if we're always looking around the corner for something better?
My life continued as follows: Get bored/make no money/make enemies + leaving the city in search of 'new'ness = emptiness. The grass is greener on the otherside, to throw a little cliche in there. But, is there anything wrong with just enjoying the grass that yah got? Although I'm eager to know what life holds for me, I'm ready to accept that I'll find out right when it happens. Planning your future to an extent is alright when we're trying to stabilize our livelihood, but expecting that everything will happen as planned is a little naive. And, believe me, I'm the Queen of Naivity.
In this very moment, writing down everything that comes to my head brings me so close in the Present that it would make Eckhart Tolle proud. Aha.
I like this post..
I'd been coming to this site off and on now for a few months and after reading this I decided to join up.
The reason I had been coming to this site in the first place, besides the resources, was to feel less alone about my thoughts and problems. Knowing that there are others in similar situations makes a person feel a lot less isolated. That as well as being connected to the real realities of the world.. the stuff most normally dont see or even think about, especially out in sticksville, sk. ..You know.. the kind of stuff that never made it to Walt Disney. ha.
Anyways, good to hear things are looking up for you.. hopefully me too. salut
Great posts - both of you.
Robyn, you're right. The grass is always greener on the otherside. It's human nature to be curious about what you don't have. You get accustomed to your life, to routine, and different often seems "better".
In fact, it's just different.
People often spend too much time looking for the perfect spot of grass and being unhappy when they don't find it. But it's not about finding the perfect anything. It's about the journey and what you learn on that journey. You make friends, you discover the world, you discover yourself.
If life was about getting places, after being born we'd only care about death. Personally, I'm more interested in the living part.
that's exactly where i am. it's true that i let a few new changes in work and home influence that, but it helped me to realize that 'right now' is the only option.
8-) best wich for hope faith and courage !
But! I've found the greener grass is the one I lie on in the some parks.
I don't have grass home but i don't care so !
Caus' I still dislike the noisy machine made for to cut that grass. Maybe I'll change this statement someday.
For yet it's ok like that !