damned scratch

I'm curious if there is anyone out there that is taking methadone and is only taking ONE mg and a little freaked out to take the next step.
Me, i know that i've spent the last two and a half years getting rid of all the poisons inside of me, dope included. I've been working with CRAN to bring me down to nothing and now that i'm only one mg away, my mind is playing tricks on me. Mentally, i know i'm ready to live drug-free (for the exception of the yearly beer on my bday). I know that i'm not going to pick up some riggs and go searching for cheap dilaus, cuz ive found out that there are things around me that are so much more important, including my gorgeous dog Dora. I have nightly dreams of using, of searching, of ODing and they are so vivid that i wake up feeling the rush. Waking up, i know its a dream and i get dressed and go to work.
But physically? I mean, i know that one mg seems a little trivial but i worry that one mg will make a world of difference. I suppose its the mental trying to trick me into feeling something physical. It doesn't help that my new pharmacy charges me up the ass for that ONE mg.
I guess im just looking for a little bit of relation and revelation./