Final Request

Final Request

Your body is perfect in it's physical structure
I am drunk in desire for youe sexual indulgence
Confusing my lust, to be love, set in time immortal
I blind myself entirely to the truth

For I am, and was just a silly pawn in your game
I became a source for money, a toy for sex, and a puppet for you to control
To say that Karma does exist is pointless, because baby, you had me fooled

The drugs are what seemed to bind us together
As I foolishly bowed down before your wrath, and constant anger
I loved you, despite your flaws, as I fought desperately to keep you
Emotionally, unstable I wounded myself and entertained suicidal tendiences

I silently watched from up close and from afar
Like some wild animal I hunted you down, guided by your bittersweet scent
Desperatley wanting you, needing you, as my passion ate me up inside

Repeatedly you left, but you always returned to me
Even still, I did the very same thing to you
What it is that keeps us togther, I swear I do not know
It may just be that we have become an endless joke and amusement for the gods

We have tried in vain to seperate from each other, to leave
But it seems that fate compels us to stay, and try yet again
It could be that our very differences have become what made us into one

So, come here, and touch me, remind me that I'm still alive, that you are real
Show me, that this relationship is no mere illusion, no dream, no elaborate lie
Teach me again, my love, how to think and how to feel
In so doing you will give me one last ture moment of happiness

Before, I give up the fight, close my eyes, quietly leave this world, and die

date: Tuesday, November 9, 2004
by: D. Grant Renshaw